stellablu: I’m fucking sad. I thought I’d feel better tonight and I fe

stellablu: I’m fucking sad. I thought I’d feel better tonight and I feel horrible. Yesterday I was...

By :Anwar Washington 0 comments

I’m fucking sad. I thought I’d feel better tonight and I feel horrible. Yesterday I was in shock and today it’s just hurting me.

I rarely talked about Prince, because he was very private. If you personally know me you know that I barely talk to anyone. I’m very closed off to people and very shy. There’s about 5 people I keep in constant contact with besides my parents and those are my sister, my boyfriend, my two best friends, and Prince. He always was there for me. I don’t even know how he found the time to mentor and be a friend to so many people, but he was always there. I feel so lonely right now. Not being able to send him an email.. He’d be up in the middle of the night just like me. We’d share music, funny photos, documentaries, I’d send him my artwork first just for him to see. He would read my tweets, check in on me, keep watch on my work. It was all so genuine too. He was just an earth angel for me. I’ve never been affected by death ever in my life, not even my grandparents. This is something I’ve never felt before. It’s just a bad heart hurt. I keep thinking about the amazing memories I have of him, but they’re so happy they make me even more sad. From playing ping pong with him and my sister, to watching my first (and only) Elizabeth Taylor movie, a Place in the Sun. Fuck, I am so lucky. I am so grateful that I got almost 5 years to get to know you, although I thought I was going to have a lot longer.. All the time I kept it inside, I underplayed our friendship. But I just don’t want to keep it inside anymore. It’s all so amazing that it should be shared. You’re so amazing Prince. RIP friend, I hope to be reunited again some day

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